Consistency over perfection

“Continuous improvement is better than delayed perfection.”

— Mark Twain

I find myself struggling with wanting perfection above all else. Logically I know it is not real. There is no one perfect thing in this world. Whether I am writing my novel or streaming, I want everything to go just right. Streamers, we all know the universal truth which is there will be scuff of some sort on every stream. So, we should just accept that truth instead of stressing ourselves into panic or depression over it. In, writing everyone knows it's called a rough draft for a reason. My brain however tries to write and edit at the same time. It is hell trying to do so and it only delays completely the first draft.

I'm absolutely certain that my past trauma and low self-esteem have a big part to do with why I want to make everything perfect. Perhaps it's so I can feel in control? I know the outcome because I create it. Growing up, I had no control at all, which caused me a lot of stress now that I'm an adult. I haven't even begun to learn, much less mastered, the skill of letting go.

In my life, I want to become more consistent. I know that consistency will help me learn to trust myself again. I answered the previous question, "How do you trust yourself again?"

However, I couldn't help but question how someone could be constant after living a life of inconsistency. I'm experimenting with schedules, reminders, mini-rewards for accomplishments, and being patient with myself if I start to slack. Additionally, I'm actively working to look after myself better. I'm trying to think more kindly. I know I can change, and I want to.

Now my daily affirmation or mantra to myself is consistency over perfection.

Wish me luck! I'll check back in with little updates on Twitter so be sure to watch for out for those.

May the stars always light your way,

Sue Astra